I had a wonderful visitor last week. A very good friend from class came to visit. I had not smiled or laughed that much in a long time. It was fun to play catch up.
Sometimes you forget who you are capable of being. He reminded me. I have sat here waiting on Hospice and they have not even, in 16 days, scheduled the fingerprinting yet. No more. When they are ready for me, I will be there but in the meantime I have been reminded just what a good writer I am, that I am a woman of interest, that I am good company and I am not someone who sits around waiting for things to happen. Maybe I haven’t met new friends as of yet, and we know it isn’t because I’ve not been out there trying, but I am good company for myself. I know how to entertain myself and when someone comes into my life I will be an asset to them as well as them being an asset to me. Thank you Mark.
So I have found a new place to sit by the water. It is not a beach so it has a different atmosphere than the beach. There are shaded tables, piers, docks, trails and miles and miles of water stretching out before one. The cranes and egrets and all types of other birds come right up to you, they are not the least afraid. It is a marvelous place to meditate. I am going to take my embroidery, my gratitude journal, my writing materials, and lunch and go sit by the water and be restored every day that I am free to do so. I will be still and I will be fulfilled with that for now.
Do you remember you are a child of God and that you are wondrous and interesting and good company for yourself? No one wants to be alone always, but for now, if I must be, if you must be, at least let us smile and enjoy our own path. Lonesome is a word I don’t want to acknowledge. Happy, blessed, loving, forgiving, laughing, joy-filled and abundant in may ways is how I choose to be. Hey, I’m out of here, I’m burning daylight :) Much love, Susan